Do I Have To?

My mother recently and gently mentioned that I hadn't posted anything on my blog for quite some time.  Apparently someone actually checked! Well I don't want to disappoint all my readers (Hi Mom!) so I am here to regale you all with an update.  Self-deprecating humor aside- there are reasons why I have avoided the update.  I suppose I feel when I started this blog my progress was much more tangible and dramatic.  When starting from the bottom, everything seems like a tremendous gain.  My progress is much less of the leaps and bounds and more like "where do I go from here?" So there it is- where do I go from here? My goals of walking and being fully functioning in a "normal" body- although still the ultimate dream- have now been replaced with how can I be more independent and go back to work while struggling with fatigue and constant pain?  So you see, these goals are a lot less fun and dramatic.  I don't think a video of me looking through craigslist for a new apartment would be very enticing.  But, I do continue on and am VERY thankful for all that I do have! I do have the most awesome, loving and caring husband. I do have supportive and loving friends and family.  I am so thankful for the gifts that have been given to my recovery fund.  I really cannot imagine my life without the security of knowing I am cared for.  So, to anyone reading this, big hugs and lots of love and light.  THANK YOU!  I will try and write more often. Promise.